To be honest, I am not in a good physiological and psychological condition to write a post now since my body has not been in its best shape since earlier this week and I have been having a lot of thought lately. So, wind (msk angin) + thought = pseudo-insomnia for me.

Hence, today post is taken from someone's blog that I read before with the title below. Originally, this posting is made by Linda Lauwira (a friend of my friend's hehehe, thanks Linda), which you can see it here.

It's quite creative thought of hers and it's quite funny too (in case you understand how the real subprime crisis happening,hehe). Credit to her as the original writer. Below is the original writing from her.

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Love Crunch Vs. Credit Crunch

With all the subprimes' bet toppling down even Bear Stern of Wall Street, it makes me wonder if Love is not similar to a subprime loan?

You drove down the highway called life and you see the banner of Love Property offering you cheap down payment and low monthly installments? You got tired of renting out of singlehood; where you can never have a fixed home that can be your sanctuary always. So you said why not?! Let's cut a deal with this lovie-dovey business.

9 months down the road. The rate had hiked up to the roof. You had to pay insurance, property tax plus your monthly payments. Added to that, the economy is not doing so good.. so interest rate is spiked from 1% to 7%; expectations rose. Good bye half of your monthly salary [that goes to your monthly payment]... low loving deposit to your partner. Hellow collection letters... snappy demands from your relationships.

Thus with all the bounced checks, you are months delinquent.. Thus with all the disappointments and misunderstandings, you are running a contest instead of relationship. All the pressure started coming on to you. Your sanctuary became the stone that sunk you to the bottom of all debts; your commitment became the lodestone that hung around your neck.

Thus. The decision.. is it foreclosure or loan modification. is this it or love mod?
What happen along the way? From a new happy beginning of something precious into something that can make you or bankrupt you? Are you strong enough to let go? or are you brave enough to hold on?

So when all the chips are down and you found yourself seeking for a lifeline, any lifeline; is it your fault for not researching and understanding the product that you are buying into? Is it your fault for not thinking through of all the commitments, give and take of a relationship? Or is it their fault for making it looked so easy? Is it theirs? OR ultimately is it YOURS?

Ok, forgive me that I haven’t had time to write about my trips, however my first trip has been written but I need to polish it with pictures.

In this post, I write about what I learned the most during the last two days, especially about what Ci Lily (the evangelist in the Indonesian fellowship in Paris) said in her sermon.

If you saw my Facebook status about two weeks ago you would know that I said something more or less like this “Sutayasa believes everything will be wonderful in HIS time.” Honestly, I still haven’t gotten the wonderful thing I sought before but I become firmer now in changing my orientation. God has several times reminded me in the last few weeks about Matthew 6:33-34:

"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

I always love the song Seek Ye first which is based on that verses, but I honestly admit that the reality may not be wonderful at all when we try to do that statement. However, thanks be to God, that He showed me these below examples to strengthen me during these kind of time.

There is no such thing as late in His time

Susan Boyle, a 48 year old woman who just started his career in world professional music industry through Britain’s got talent 2009 about three weeks ago has failed in a lot of her attempts before despite her wonderful talent. She believed that it was because her appearance that doesn’t look appealing that she even joked that she has not been kissed in her life.

Modern society is too quick to judge people on their appearances. [...] There is not much you can do about it; it is the way they think; it is the way they are. But maybe this could teach them a lesson, or set an example. — Susan Boyle, The Washington Post

However, God changed her life from a singer in the choir and a volunteer worker in her church to a worldwide-phenomenon. She initially didn’t want to participate in Britain’s got talent until her mother died two years ago and she decided to fulfil her mother’s wish for her.

Some interesting things in the video:

00:20-00:27 – Never been kissed etc.

00:55-01:03 – she comes from village

01:00 – I’m 47, and that’s just one side of me

01:27-01:31 – I am trying to be a professional singer but I’ve never been given a chance before

01:34-01:35 – a lady grinned when Susan said she wants to be like Elaine Paige

01:44- 04:16 – I Dreamed a Dream by Susan Boyle, things happening during the song:

Simon lid his eyes up only in Susan’s third notes, people started standing on her third line, her last line of songs touched me:

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

Watched out for this, on 04:25 she left the stage after a thunderous applause from the audience, she thought that this would not be different from the other show she has been in, demeaning people just because of their appearance, and she was only there singing to fulfil her mother wish, so there was not any point for her to keep on standing. But the judges call her back, Piers Morgan, who told her, “Without a doubt, that was the biggest surprise I’ve had in three years on the show.” He then voted with saying “the biggest yes I have ever given anybody.”

Amanda Holden said “Everybody was against you. I honestly think that we are all being very cynical and I think that was the biggest wake-up call ever... it was instantly brilliant”

Cowell completed the judging with the third resounding yes. “Susan Boyle, you can go back to the village with your head held high,” he said. “It’s three yeses.”

There is no such thing as too soon in His time too

Hollie Steel, 10 years old, ballerina? Singer? I am not too sure, but I’m sure that she is one of the best talent that God created.

Interesting things in the video:

01:32-02:44 – Her singing

01:46 Simon almost pressed the “no” button before Hillie sang

Amanda: “it’s just ridiculous how much talent you have..I was stunned”

Piers: “we’ve seen a lot of children... I never heard any of them sings as well as you”

Simon:”you got fantastic voice.. the fact that you don’t know how good you are it’s what I really like about you”

Don’t give up on Him, He will not give up on you

Shaheen Jafargholi, 12 year old, chose Valerie by Amy Winehouse because it was his favourite song but even though the crowd like it, Simon stopped the song short at 01:35 and said “You got this really wrong, what do you sing apart from that?” Amazingly, Shaheen looked really calm and said that he want to sing his next song, Who’s loving you by Michael Jackson.

At the end, all the three judges stood up and gave him applause. Simon said “This is how one song can change your life” which I think can be translated to “This is how easy for God to change your life if you don’t give up.” Amanda said “I get a Goosebumps test, I got it with Paul Potts [the winner of BGT 2007]. I got it with George Sampson [the winner of BGT 2008] and I got it with you.”

It's a bit stretching the fact but we can learn from the video that often times the one that we want (like Valerie song in this case) is not something that we need to bring out the best in us.

This condition of having uncertain future (not really future, it's my next 6 weeks) maybe something that I don't really like nor I really want but I have a strong belief that this will be the one that teach me best. Maybe it's just time for me to make a friendly gesture with failure before leaving it for success.

Ok, I know that zodiak is certainly not a scientific approach to know someone and I don't believe how 550 millions people in this world (assuming we have 6.6 billions people now) can be characterised by a page of description.

I firmly believe God is way more creative than that, hahaha. However, I just want to laugh on it as I found the 'most accurate to date' description of me using zodiak, hahaha.

The link is available on here for Libra and here for October 1. Let me know which part that made you laugh when you read it or which one that you think is wrong for me, hahaha.

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Libra individuals are artistic, affectionate, and refined. With Venus as the ruling planet, people born under this sign are considered to be attractive and fashion-conscious. They seek peace and joy through personal and professional relationships.

The Libra Man

When it comes to charm, there is no one more appealing than a Libra man. He is often the handsome tough-guy type but with a rare sensitivity that makes him irresistible. Men born under this sign are often drawn to artistic and creative careers. They usually marry, often at a young age. Because they are generally good-natured and accommodating, Libra men are happy to do their share of housework. They are supportive and enthusiastic about their spouse's career.

The Libra Lover

Libra men and women are the most romantic among the zodiacal types. Venus-ruled, they have an idealistic view of love and togetherness. Once these people fall in love, they start thinking of marriage. Libras don't enjoy romantic suffering. Whenever they are disappointed in a relationship, a Libra man or woman will spend a little time grieving and then move to another partnership.

The Libra Friend

Because they are very social people, Libras make good friends. Libras are great counsellors, because they have the ability to weigh the pros and cons of an idea fairly and without bias. They love giving parties, and they have talent for making people feel at ease. Although they may seem superficial at times, anyone who knows these charming men and women understands that they have an intriguingly profound side to their nature.

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1. artistic?? my drawing can even scare mouse, hahaha

2. fashion-conscious?? come on, hahaha, i don't really care what I wear everyday, hahaha

3. okay, I maybe a charming-appealing person (now, you can call me a liar too, right? hahahaha) but honestly, "handsome tough-guy type" is perfectly not me, hahaha.

4. "drawn to artistic and creative careers"??? hahahaha, how artistic a programming or investment banking for a normal person will decide whether this statement is true or not, hahaha

5. "They usually marry, often at a young age." i am almost 21 and i don't think I will marry anyone at least until I am 24 or 25. I am not sure it's young enough, hahaha

6. Having said that, I agree to The Libra Lover description except the last sentence. (this is also provided that you believe I am not a liar, hahaha)

7. The Friend description seems accurate for me, haha, but you are the one who suppose to judge it as my friend,haha.

okay, here goes another ‘more personal’ one

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Libras born on October 1 have a bold and uncompromising spirit and an ability to come back from hard times. They enjoy being in the spotlight but have too much grace to appear egotistical or vain. October 1 men and women understand the need to build their future on past successes. They have an instinct for making the right decision.

Libra Information for October 1 You should embrace: Thoroughness, acceptance, happy memories You should avoid: A domineering temperament, disapproval, petty people

Friends and Lovers

Friends play a pivotal role in the lives of October 1 men and women. They have a wide variety of social contacts but a small circle of very intimate friends. October 1 individuals are extremely romantic. They fall in and out of love quickly. Once married, they will strive to keep the romance alive.

Children and Family

Family life has a major impact upon the lives of October 1 individuals. Their idyllic childhood may make them nostalgic for the past. They have the best intentions of fulfilling their parental roles, yet may find themselves preoccupied with career responsibilities. They do set rules that provide social and spiritual guidance.

Health

Because of their generally upbeat nature, October 1 men and women have little problem dealing with stress. Generally moderate in all things, these people usually keep their weight down. Even though they hate to sweat, they usually keep up a regular workout program.

Career and Finances

October 1 individuals are often drawn to careers that give them a chance to show their commitment to the less fortunate. Perhaps because they know only too well how much they enjoy spending hard-earned cash on beautiful things, they may not trust themselves with money.

Dreams and Goals

October 1 natives have the spirit to overcome adversity, which gives them great satisfaction because it allows them to demonstrate their true mettle. They seek harmony in all aspects of life. This can require some sacrifices in personal relationships, but they are glad to make those sacrifices if it provides peace of mind.

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I should admit the ‘more personal’ one describes me better, but there are still some slight differences though, hahaha. I would leave it to you to guess which one doesn't suit me, so come and flood my blog with your opinions and comments, haha.

Nope, I know what you were thinking about, the last three words are not the official abbreviation of Cin(T)a.

After all this time, this maybe the first movie for the last 1 year that I fell in love in the first sight with. The trailer is marvelous, it's a novel idea in any ways, and it's really making me proud of Indonesian movie producer.



The synopsis is pretty short but really engaging. It makes you wonder in your deepest sense what this movie is all about.

This is a story of a triangle love between
Cina (the boy), Annisa (the girl),
and Tuhan (God).

Cina and Annisa love God
and God loves them both
But Cina and Annisa cannot love each other
because they call God by different names

Casts

Cina, an 18 year-old college freshmen, was ready to conquer the world with a strong faith, yet naive, since it had never been tested by failure.

God (Tuhan) is the most unpredictable character. Everybody tries to describe Him. Everybody thought they knew Him. Every art tried to figure Him. But nothing is really like Him...or Her

Annisa is a 24 year-old college senior whose education was held back because of her career in the movie industry. Her fame and beauty left her so lonely that she drew a sad face on her finger as her companion. Until one day, another finger came and she was no longer lonely.

I have watched the below trailer several times and I still in love with this trailer. It potraits the religious difference so bluntly that a lot of discussin in Kaskus and other web forums predict that the film will be banned. However their premiere screening will be in London on 29 May 2009 and I really wanted to be there but I will be only in London on 10 June 2009 (if my visa application successful though, please help me God on this one, hehe)



Meanwhile, I can only do the same as what everybody else do in most of their lifetime, waiting.